Comments on: I’m Still Here http://www.theswarmite.com/im-still-here Checking Out London Lifestyles, CODEPENDENCY & Urban Addictions Fri, 18 May 2012 11:24:04 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.2 By: Clayton http://www.theswarmite.com/im-still-here/comment-page-1#comment-111 Clayton Sat, 09 May 2009 13:28:50 +0000 http://www.theswarmite.com/?p=1476#comment-111 Wow. What a raw, honest, personal and ultimately uplifting blog. I echo Kim's comment. I'm so happy you're still around to share your wisdom and experience. People like you matter so much. Clay x Wow. What a raw, honest, personal and ultimately uplifting blog. I echo Kim’s comment. I’m so happy you’re still around to share your wisdom and experience. People like you matter so much. Clay x

]]> By: theswarmite http://www.theswarmite.com/im-still-here/comment-page-1#comment-91 theswarmite Tue, 21 Apr 2009 21:06:37 +0000 http://www.theswarmite.com/?p=1476#comment-91 Thanks Droidy for this loving memory of Grateful Robert and the likes of Peter W who carried on regardless. We need to be reminded of the risks they took in facing their futures. We also do acknowledge our own recovery process as survivors but both died clean which is the strongest message of all. Thanks Droidy for this loving memory of Grateful Robert and the likes of Peter W who carried on regardless. We need to be reminded of the risks they took in facing their futures. We also do acknowledge our own recovery process as survivors but both died clean which is the strongest message of all.

]]> By: droid http://www.theswarmite.com/im-still-here/comment-page-1#comment-83 droid Sat, 18 Apr 2009 14:13:33 +0000 http://www.theswarmite.com/?p=1476#comment-83 A flickr gallery has been set up in Grateful Robert's memory. He leaves one daughter behind. God Bless. http://www.flickr.com/groups/gratefulrobert/pool/ A flickr gallery has been set up in Grateful Robert’s memory. He leaves one daughter behind. God Bless.

http://www.flickr.com/groups/gratefulrobert/pool/

]]> By: droid http://www.theswarmite.com/im-still-here/comment-page-1#comment-82 droid Sat, 18 Apr 2009 14:07:17 +0000 http://www.theswarmite.com/?p=1476#comment-82 Yes Madge, inspirationa as usual. I have been there for a lot of your ups and downs. The days you couldn't work with me cos you were too tired, the moves, the Spain episode, Barry's murder (I was interviewed and DNA checked along with everyone else in his Filofax), homelessness and your eventual triumph over all the shite that was thrown in your way. Eventually we end up sitting on a plane to India 24 odd years later to lap up a little slice of heaven and generally lol about in the sun with the most awesome crowd of friends one could want to hang out with. Life is good. I myself was given a short life expectancy when I rocked up at a clinic, age 22, confused as fuck and tired of my chem and booze ruled lifestyle. 22 for God's sake. But hey, some don't ever get it. The friends who did get were sometimes then to discover they had the virus. In the late 80's we watched them, one by one, drop like flies with no hope of recovery or even a respite. Which brings us up to date with the recent death of the most grateful recovering addict ever, Grateful Robert. Gratitude oozed from every word he spoke. Even though I had not seen him since I left London he was always there the first 10 years of my recovery. So, even all these years later, the virus ended his humble and grateful life. Like Peter W (RIP) he made the best of every moment he had knowing that his days were numbered. Strange that we all don't just do that anyway sometimes. Lack of gratitude is such a waste of life, time and head space. My process is happening now, my mid-life change. Time to shake up my shit and re-evaluate and be happy for what I do have, rather than what I don't. I'm not in charge, even if I delude myself that I am. It's a matter of 'seeing' the way and then putting in the action. Sometimes it's a matter of doing nothing at all, which can be a lot harder. So, here's to the memory of Grateful Robert and all that he stood for - a shining example of what is possible. To Peter W who ran a small courier company and turned it into a massive one all the time knowing what the virus was doing to him. What the fuck do I have to complain about? I'm still here. Thanks for the ride and the support. We venture on into new territories. D x Yes Madge, inspirationa as usual. I have been there for a lot of your ups and downs. The days you couldn’t work with me cos you were too tired, the moves, the Spain episode, Barry’s murder (I was interviewed and DNA checked along with everyone else in his Filofax), homelessness and your eventual triumph over all the shite that was thrown in your way. Eventually we end up sitting on a plane to India 24 odd years later to lap up a little slice of heaven and generally lol about in the sun with the most awesome crowd of friends one could want to hang out with. Life is good.
I myself was given a short life expectancy when I rocked up at a clinic, age 22, confused as fuck and tired of my chem and booze ruled lifestyle. 22 for God’s sake. But hey, some don’t ever get it. The friends who did get were sometimes then to discover they had the virus. In the late 80′s we watched them, one by one, drop like flies with no hope of recovery or even a respite. Which brings us up to date with the recent death of the most grateful recovering addict ever, Grateful Robert. Gratitude oozed from every word he spoke. Even though I had not seen him since I left London he was always there the first 10 years of my recovery. So, even all these years later, the virus ended his humble and grateful life. Like Peter W (RIP) he made the best of every moment he had knowing that his days were numbered. Strange that we all don’t just do that anyway sometimes. Lack of gratitude is such a waste of life, time and head space.
My process is happening now, my mid-life change. Time to shake up my shit and re-evaluate and be happy for what I do have, rather than what I don’t. I’m not in charge, even if I delude myself that I am. It’s a matter of ‘seeing’ the way and then putting in the action. Sometimes it’s a matter of doing nothing at all, which can be a lot harder.

So, here’s to the memory of Grateful Robert and all that he stood for – a shining example of what is possible. To Peter W who ran a small courier company and turned it into a massive one all the time knowing what the virus was doing to him.

What the fuck do I have to complain about?

I’m still here.

Thanks for the ride and the support. We venture on into new territories.

D x

]]> By: theswarmite http://www.theswarmite.com/im-still-here/comment-page-1#comment-80 theswarmite Tue, 14 Apr 2009 22:00:40 +0000 http://www.theswarmite.com/?p=1476#comment-80 well it's all true LaFang - this is why people have been getting me to write this blog. A book was too overwhelming but a blog is how you eat an Elephant - in bite size chunks. This is why the lyrics to " I'm still here " are relevant. x well it’s all true LaFang – this is why people have been getting me to write this blog. A book was too overwhelming but a blog is how you eat an Elephant – in bite size chunks. This is why the lyrics to ” I’m still here ” are relevant. x

]]> By: Lafang http://www.theswarmite.com/im-still-here/comment-page-1#comment-78 Lafang Tue, 14 Apr 2009 14:24:28 +0000 http://www.theswarmite.com/?p=1476#comment-78 Madge, what an odyssey! No one can ever say you haven't lived. Since I love to state the obvious, I'll say this: if all that hadn't happened to you, you probably wouldn't have been inspired to help so many people they way you do and have. What a journey life can be. I'm very glad you're still here. Madge, what an odyssey!
No one can ever say you haven’t lived.
Since I love to state the obvious, I’ll say this: if all that hadn’t happened to you, you probably wouldn’t have been inspired to help so many people they way you do and have.
What a journey life can be.
I’m very glad you’re still here.

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